Thursday, February 4, 2010

Waking up...

This morning I woke with strong warm arms around me.
Strong warm arms that had wanted to go home and sleep in their own bed,
but stayed because I needed them.
.
It was a nice way to wake up.
For about two seconds.
Snuggled against my sweetheart.
And then I realized we were sharing a twin sized bed.
In a dark little sleeping cell.
Far away from home.
And the wave of remembrance washed over me like a wave.
Tangible. Heavy.
The familiar burn returned to my throat.
That lump came back.
.
Here we are.
This is where we live now.
.
I lay there letting it all soak in again.
Praying for another good day.
Thanking God again for all of the countless ways that this has been made easier.
The amazing things that are taking place.
The faith that is growing and chasing out the fear.
.
I sat up.
Wiped the tears from falling.
Took a breath.
Chose to be ready.
Bring it on!
Another chapter of our miracle.
It will be a good day. An amazing day.
.
I can feel it!

20 comments:

Sue said...

Love you, girl! Fasting again today; miracles abound. I wish I were there to throw my arms around you and talk and take pictures of Bronson without his "straw", with his eyes open. Today is the day!

sarah said...

Sara, I saw your story on Natalie Norton's blog. Just wanted to let you know a multitude of prayers are being sent up on behalf of Bronson and all of you guys. I'm a mom of 3 boys (and my name is Sarah, husband is Matt) and I could just so see myself in your shoes. Praying with the fervor of a fellow mommy to boys.

Hil said...

Coming from Natalie's blog... Praying for you, your family and most importantly your sweet baby boy! I couldn't sleep last night as I thought about your sweet little Bronson. I had to sneak in and give my Little Guy a cuddle and kiss while he was sleeping.

Sending prayers of comfort, strength, good health and progress your way. Here's to another good day!

mattandjenna said...

Oh, how my heart aches for you and each member of your sweet family. I have a 15 month old baby boy, and I. can't. imagine. I have been thinking of your family and praying for Bronson's healing throughout the morning. It is so evident that God, the Creator of each little bone in Bronson's body, is all over him. I pray that He would give you a miracle!

Emily said...

I saw your blog in a facebook link posted by one of your neighbors, and I have been following your story and praying with you since Tuesday morning.

You are an amazing woman and I admire your honesty, your courage, and your faith through this time. Thank you for the reminder to hold my own little ones a little tighter.

I am constantly full of awe and gratitude as I read your updates, and I will continue to pray for more positive updates soon. :)

Lynette said...

Here's to an amazing day! Bring it on!!
PS- You and that Natalie lady need to be on Oprah. You both write so amazingly and have inspired all of us around the world.
How cool that you have come together through the internet. Technology is incredible when used the right way.
How are the other boys doing?
I'm sure Angels are busy there too.

Love ya

Dianna said...

Sara & Matt,
We have been praying for miracles to happen for Bronson and to comfort the Staker family. We check the blog constantly for updates. Our boys come home from school and the first thing they ask is "how's Bronson doing today?." With every post we read we are "awestruck" with you. Just know we are praying for Bronson daily and you are in our thoughts every minute. Miracle do happen! With Love, The Phillips Family

Anonymous said...

My prayers go out to you and your family. I have been following your blog all week and praying for not only a miracle recovery for your son but also for you to have the strenght someday be able to forgive yourself. I have a newborn son and your story has reminded me what a gift life is but also how easily and quickly a tragedy can happen. I have been reminded to quick taking life for granted and the importance of faith. Thank you for your raw honesty and openness, it is inspiring. My prayers are with you.

Alicia Nelson said...

Just came from Natalie's blog and said a little prayer for you. You, baby Bronson, your family and the doctors will be in my prayers

{jane} said...

Love those strong arms, whatever would us girls do without them? Today will be so good.

Love you all.

Dallas & Tammy said...

Thank you so much for sharing your experience! Your entire family has certainly been put here at this time to help and guide others! Know that many you might not know personally love, respect and cherish each of you and pray for you and those like you always! Tammy Warren

Anonymous said...

Dear Sara and family,
Dr Brad has informed me and others who are students/practitioners of The Emotion Code of your family challenge with Bronson. In reading your blog I'm encouraged by your complete reliance on our Heavenly Father. I pray His Spirit will continue to made know to you and raise Bronson up to live a full and rich life. Pat in Cleveland SC

Jesicca said...

God bless your bravery! God bless those strong arms that hold you when needed! God bless the Dr.'s & nurses loving and caring for little B! God bless the power of prayer! We love you and you are all in our constant thoughts, prayers, and family conversations!

connie stauffer said...

Praying for you and your family. Your faith is amazing. Thanks for sharing. I can't read your blog without choking up. You are so brave.

Nicole said...

I came across your blog from a friend on Facebook. Just wanted your family to know we are praying for you. Please know that your story will change many many families lives. I truly do not know a single mama who has not stepped out of the bathroom for a few minutes while their child is in the tub, including me. Please try to get past the guilt. And know that your tragedy may help prevent many others. Thank you for your story. My family will keep you in our prayers. May God be with you all through this difficult time.

Anonymous said...

Dear Sara and family,

As a friend and student of Dr. Brad's I learned about your unfortunate tragedy. Please know that we will also keep you in our hearts and prayers and are hoping for a complete recovery. God bless Bronson! Mary Ann in Connecticut

Kristin said...

Like many others, I saw your story on Natalie's blog. I am praying for you and your entire family, but most of all for Bronson. Rest in the knowledge that you are loved and so very many are praying for you all.

May God's blessings lift you up and give you strength.

Kristen said...

Sarah, I am praying for your little Bronson with EVERY.OUNCE.OF.MY.MOMMA.SOUL.

I love you, and I've never even met you.

Love from Hawaii.

Kristen

Jess said...

You are truly an incredible, brave, amazing woman of the Lord and he is going to bless your family and sweet Bronson so much because of it. Your story has touched me as if I have known your family for years. I am praying for you guys and I know that God will work a miracle, as he always does. Love you guys!

anne said...

Sara...I found your blog through a family member who is a friend of Jane's. I have six boys and was attracted to your blog in the first place because you have boys as well. You are a most darling mommy. And there are no strangers in the Gospel of Jesus Christ... you are my sister and my love and heart go out to you and Baby Bronson today. I add my faith and prayers to yours as Bronson continues to recover. Thank You for sharing your story....