Alright, already...

Okay... This is it.

Tonight I feel really yucky.

Tired.

Grumpy.

Out of gas.

And sorta...

Blah.

No...

Strike that...

REALLY blah.

Blah... blah... BLAH!

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I HATE this feeling!

Absolutely HATE it!

And even worse, I know why.

I know EXACTLY why...

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You see, I usually eat really well.

By most people's standard, I eat VERY well.

I love fruits and veggies.

I eat them at nearly every meal.

I get a good balanced amount of protein and healthy, whole grain carbohydrates.
And I try to eat every 2-3 hours throughout the day.

(Yes... That's 5-6 times per day.)

I LOVE good food...

And I eat a lot!

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I also drink like a fish.

I start drinking water first thing in the morning at 5:15.

All day long, I drink and drink.

And I'm not talking soda... I despise it.

Water only.

By bedtime, I've usually consumed over 100 ounces.

Sometimes more.

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And I usually have plenty of energy.

Moreso than I sometimes know what to do with!

You know me!

Me and all my big ideas...

{If only I could buy more time at the health food store!}

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But this past week, I have been very "off."

No particular reason...

I've just been a bit lazy, I guess.

Slipping up in my usually good habits.

If we are what we eat, then right now, I am the city dump!

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With Matt gone, I immersed myself in a project and barely slept.

We had visitors staying with us

and I was not diligent with my planned meals and regular mealtimes.

I've hardly drunk any water.

I am thirsty.

My head aches.

Even my lips and skin feel dry.

I know I am dehydrated.

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So this is MY fault!

I know better!

I know what my body needs.

I'm just not giving it!

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SO...

As of this moment, I am recommitting to take better care of myself.

Because I can.

Because I should.

Because I am worth it.

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...And they are worth it!

{Because I know that even when they don't complain,

my boys like me even more when I am feeling good.

And fun.

And like myself.

Instead of like this... yucky... blob.}

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So no more being lazy and eating crappy for me!

For crying out loud...

I AM NOT A GARBAGE DISPOSAL!

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I do NOT need to finish my children's meals for them!

I can not.

I will not.

It is an awful habit!

...One of my worst.

Just because they decide they are "done" eating while there is still food on their plates

(food I worked hard to prepare for them, mind you ),

does NOT mean I have to consume it to prevent it from going to waste!

I do not have to dispose of it!

At least not into my own mouth!

That's why we have a garbage can.

And a disposal in our sink!

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I hereby remind myself that I am a big girl.

I have outgrown "kiddie food".

I can not thrive off of the leftover Peanut Butter & Jelly sandwich crusts.

Or the last few bites of their Pigs in a Blanket.

I DO deserve to take the time to prepare my OWN real food...

Even if THEY want Mac & Cheese, Little Caesar's or McDonald's

(on the rare occasion that I actually cave in and indulge them).

They are boys.

Little boys.

Growing boys!

With the metabolism of a raging bonfire!

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I, on the other hand,

am aging...

I can not eat anything and everything, like I once could, and still feel fine.

And I do not have the self-discipline to deprive myself.

Or the cardio-endurance of a Madman, like my sweet-tooth husband.

{I love you, Sweets...}

So instead, I must choose well.

I must choose better.

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It's sort of like the oxygen mask thing...

As counter-intuitive as it seems, it is how we ensure that we all survive.

And how we all thrive...

In order to take care of others well, we must first take care of ourselves, as well.

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So for now, that means cracking the proverbial whip a bit, on my eating habits...

I start in the morning!

{I can hardly wait!}

GNO...

I had a fun Girl's Night Out with a few of my very favorite ladies (namely Jane, Daphne and Caryn) on Saturday evening... (thanks girlies, for making the time!) :)

We went to Carrabba's for dinner. So yum! And I mean YUM with a capital Y-U-M! It is my very favorite food in all the world, I am fairly sure. If I had to choose just one thing to eat from today until the end of time, it would be the Fillet Bryan from Carrabba's. Of course, I may weigh 300 pounds by this time next year, because I always order it with grilled veggies AND garlic mashed potatoes (which are to DIE for!), but seriously... how DO they make that food taste SOOO good? I could eat there every day and NEVER get tired of it! If you haven't eaten there, crawl out of your cave... you HAVE to try it... TONIGHT! It is seriously the BEST food I have ever eaten.

http://www.carrabbas.com/

It has been Matt and I's favorite restaurant for several years now, since it opened here in Orem. It is starting to get more crowded (secret's out!), but you can call ahead! The service is always personable and prompt and the food is perfect EVERY time! Almost everything on the menu is incredible, but I always order the Fillet Bryan. It is the very best steak I have ever tasted and has this amazing lemon-butter-basil sauce with sun-dried tomatoes. This photo (off their website) is of the Chicken Bryan, same dish, just chicken instead of steak. Both de-lish!

Anyway, eating there always makes me happy, so thanks Ladies for indulging in my craving with me! It's always nice to have good company for a FAB-ulous meal!

I wish I could say the same for the movie... SORRY! (It was totally MY pick!)

We went to see Fool's Gold, which I had high hopes for because I LOVED "How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days" and LOVE Matthew McConnaughey and Kate Hudson together in anything, even interviews... such great chemistry. I thought, "sweet, cute Kate", "toned, tanned Matthew" (with his shirt off for 2 hours)... what's not to like?

Well, I'm thinking maybe this was written during the writer's strike? Okay, just kidding, but seriously, it was THAT bad! REALLY corny characters, and totally implausible action scenes, cheesy camera angles, I could go on and on. The worst part is, I actually paid for it TWICE! When I bought the tickets online on Friday afternoon, I accidentally got them for Friday night instead of Saturday night. I realized my mistake as I was leaving Saturday and had to buy them AGAIN! Just my luck that the movie SUCKED!

And I know I am not the only one who was SHOCKED at the "topless flashing"... Since when do they show fully exposed boobs in Movies rated PG-13? I feel like an old-fogey saying it, but really... what is the world coming to these days? Thank goodness my boys (all of them!) were at home watching motor-cross! :)